just when i begin to think, "i have a plan, and i have goals, and by golly, it's going to be great!", i realize that God is saying, "no no nonono. alison, i have a plan, and to be honest, yours prettymuch sucked! it wasn't what I wanted. so accept Mine, and let's move forward."
& so i am. moving forward, that is.
this summer has already been packed with change. i know, i know. that's all i freakin' say. but... welp, it just got crazier.
the boyf got the job transfer he's been dieing to get. i am so, so incredibly excited for him--it means getting Utah rights, so he can start getting some seniority. however, it also means not seeing him for eight days at a time. it means sharing him a lot more than i'm used to doing. it means [ohh, the dreaded phrase]... a long-distance relationship.
yikes, right?! a month in, and that stinkin' label gets slapped down. but, you know what? today, i said goodbye for the first time, and i didn't even cry a bit. not even a little. not even shiny-eyed alison. for those of you who know me, you know that i cry all the freakin' time. it's out of control. & yet, with this, i just feel at peace. i feel like this is right. this is good. this is right where i belong. & i can either whine and complain about circumstances, or i can say "Thy will be done" & know this is all a part of the plan.
so... this is my life. typical alison, right?!
in other news, i'm a month away from starting school again [ew]. yes, that's right: one short month away from having a set schedule, from lectures, and notes, and [siiiigh] exams. one short month from me panicing about every freakin' grade, and trying to balance good clean fun at what is possibly the biggest party school ever. shootmenow.
in less than a week, it's been a whole year since my life [officially] changed. i can't even tell you how excited i am about that. it's been such an amazing year.
celebrating it is pretty much like my new birthday. i have every intention of treating myself to some ben & jerry's. if you're thinking, "why do you need to celebrate, alison?! shouldn't every day be a celebration? you should be living that kind of joy every single day!"
& to that, i say pishposh. Jesus totally approves of my celebrations. i bet He's pretty dang proud of my choosing to have a little Half Baked to celebrate Him. [holy sacreligious... my bad. & am i going to hell for eating something called "Half Baked" to celebrate my relationship with Christ? crap, i can practically feel the flames already...]
ANYWAY. lately, i'm having a blast waitressing--as in, i actually like my job. weird, right?! but, seriously, all i have to do is flirt with middle-aged men a little, chitchat it up with complete strangers, and help people along their road to intoxication. i'm practically an expert in all of these areas! easy peasy lemon squeezy.
so that's my life. please excuse my [mostly borderline inappropriate] rambling. i swear i'm not a bad person. mostly.
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